Thursday, 16 October 2014, 23:55
If there's a chance for me to, I would say I do. I really do. Despite the tinted words, hovered with sharp edges, underlies a softer touch which I am forced to escape from. I wish I didnt have to do this.
Either you're a sweet dream,
or a beautiful nightmare,
you're still my lullaby.
Once upon a time, it was grey. Startled, I became confused by the day, only to discover later that it was real...seemingly real. There on, I was slapped by reality that everything was, but just fantasy..... I accepted. An adieu was then screwed in my head and I let go.
On a lighter note, gaining weight till this much is absurd. Something has to be done somewhere somewhat. Gaining weight is one thing, but what saddened me more is actually the decreased in stamina. Even my flexibility is affected. It's a disastrous feeling when you get tired easily, even after 15-20 min of running or swimming. Especially, when you know you're capable of better performance. It's not about having a great hour-glass body to flounder around, but its more about how you perform the physical activities within your expected targets. And if you fail to reach the expectation, how on earth are you gonna keep improving yourself and trying to reach the limitless? Efforts and determinations come success, don't they? May God willing..... Bismillah.
Back to Saturday Tampines gym regime with Dee starting from next week onwards, yay! Even though gym is not one of which in my likable activities, at least something is better than nothing. Moreover, the pool is just next to it, awesome!
Open communication is an interaction between parties, so that views, thoughts and feelings can be shared and conveyed. Relatable to what I presented during OD's presentation, I did just that yesterday.
It's undeniable that sometimes somethings would happen abruptly, out of our will. Despite the resistance, if it's meant to be, it will. Especially when it comes to emotions or feelings. It is where lies the facade that none can have the control over it. Not even I, not even you and not even them... but only Him.
Countless of time has this topic being raised but sadly, it doesnt come to an end anywhere. Needless to say, my curiosity was pique and the questions came upon me like a sudden breeze, to what went wrong and how long till we reached the ending. It was light-touch of a question, which I later felt that I had to open it up subtly. Else, situation might go hay-wire. And I dont wish that to happen again. Gut-feelings are there for a reason, aren't they?
Is it possible to be just friends with someone you are potentially attracted to? Do you put aside your attraction to be friends? Do you just forget about it? But then, what happens the day it all comes flooding back to you unexpectedly?
It was an endless debate. There was no simple answer. If situation differs, the answer may probably be No for the first 3. But looking at the presence, it is not.
Marriage is that both woman and man can provide company to one another, love to one another, procreate children and live in peace and tranquility to the commandments of Allah. It serves as a means to emotional and sexual gratification and as a means of tension reduction. Isn't marriage in Islam a solemn agreement, where it is not just a matter which one can take lightly? Definitely. So who am i to barge in and interfere? I am no one and nobody in the family picture. Outsiders remain just that. Period.
Furthermore, isn't that a husband should treat his wife with equity, respect her feelings and show kindness and consideration? He's a respectable person who never forgets any bits of his responsibility.
And that, he deserves all of my respect, which not only from me but from others too. Respect, just that.
As for friendship with the unavailable, there should be a boundary - I agree. In order to avoid misunderstandings, gossips, jealousy (from whichever parties), notwithstanding unnecessary sudden feelings too, being along together between 2 is definitely inappropriate.
As what mentioned above, "notwithstanding unnecessary sudden feelings", sometimes both parties might not have any intention, might not have any agenda but.... it may never know what will it lead to - Whenever a man is alone with a woman, the devil makes a third.
Along with that line, I believe one of the trick's of devil is that he encourages human to do something that looks alright but would eventually lead to sin.
I guess somewhat, by far this explains.
Glad that yesterday wasnt a heated debate but more of an open communication where both finally understands what lies behind the blind spot area. I shall be cautious with my next action.
Thank you. Worry not, I'll make sure, I'm still sane at mind.
...And in those eyes,
I wish to be lost in them........
I guess somewhat, by far this explains.
Glad that yesterday wasnt a heated debate but more of an open communication where both finally understands what lies behind the blind spot area. I shall be cautious with my next action.
Thank you. Worry not, I'll make sure, I'm still sane at mind.
...And in those eyes,
I wish to be lost in them........
