I may not have came out with any decision yet. But that doesn't mean I could take advantage of the 'waiting'. Knowing that there's someone yearning and waiting for you, letting you go would be the best decision. I see purity in her love and I  cannot help but to unite the both of you together. 

I have mentioned this didnt i? that of all the loves you had after what we shared together once upon a time before, the love from her is the only love I feel calm and glad for you. I am sure yOou both are meant to be, In Shaa Allah :)

When I was younger, frequently I would get the similar question stated, "would you love a person more or would you prefer to be loved more?". I determined that I would want my other half to love me more than I could, because I wanna be pampered with all his love. 

As I get older, I realised with that attitude and wants, I would end up being slapped by reality. It would lead myself to downfall, caused by the evil expectation-not-met. Why should I put a high expectation knowing that it would be hard to meet. That will only jeapardise the relationship and bond. Moreover, if in marriage, if fights intrude, definitely both would scream their lungs off to each other and unknowingly would spurt crude words to one another. Being women, wouldnt that a disadvantage as unnecessary sins would be accumulated? Well, isnt wives' paradise under the feet of their husband? That sums up the answer. 

Rather now, I would reply - I would prefer to love my other half more than he could. Because, it is my duty. And I believe that would be the anecdote to cure any dissatisfactions happened.  

Compared to me, she could make you happier. And I prefer the knitted family-relationship we have now :) 

On the other note, 2 incidents happened in the afternoon that had very much caught my attention. 

But since I'm dead beat. I shall continue tomorrow! 

but before that..........

50x sit up

30x half push-up
30x squads

2x 30s plank

Tsk much. 

May peace be upon you