Wednesday, 22 October 2014, 10:29
Batam trip was cancelled off, thank god. Haha. A day in Batam is useless. I need more days for it. Furthermore, definitely, the terminal ferry would be cramped with people. I hate crowds or being around people. I hate noises. I hate hassle. I prefer a place/event with silence or little noise with few people around. Such peace and tranquility are loved! Truly loved.
Sometimes when people says they don't, they actually do. Sometimes when people acts tough outside, they're actually weak inside. Sometimes, when people shows bravery outside, they're actually timid inside. You never know when would someone use the opposite traits to overcome their own "lacking".
Isn't it a positive attitude? I believe it definitely is! Sometimes one have to open up to changes by going beyond what they can do rather than restricting them within their own capabilities. Only then, self-improvement can be achieved. This partly explains the existence of job-rotation, job-enrichment, job-enlargement or even job-simplification (eventho it only helps to improve operating efficiency, as it specifically employs people in clearly defined and specialised task, tt requires individual to perform a narrow set of task repetitively but over time, it will lead individual to lack challenge and boredom). This explains why I don't really like the idea of job simplification, if compared to the rest - maybe because I'm still young and have less commitments?? On the contrary, the rest are sucha hassle compared to Job Simplification. Aha.
Okay, I've lost tracked. Back to where I was, from the previous 2 paragraphs, "overcoming own lacking". Have you tried being numb towards whichever done to you just so you could avoid disappointments? Because you know you're prone to being sensitive that you tend to shun that feeling away by being numb about everything. Suddenly you broke down in tears, when an exception treatment which is not of what you expected made to you - which took you by complete surprise why and how could it affect you that bad.... Complete sadness, huh?
I'm not sure either. Jealousy when it comes to others, you'll be the first to come and rescue? Definitely not. Why should I feel that way? Well, maybe we're closed so maybe I expected more from you. I guess this is where my mistake lies.... expectation. I shouldnt have place that much expectation even from the start. Maybe another mistake I did was to frequent ask you unrelated question so when the related question asked, you'd take it as just another silly question too. Maybe. Maybe I should just stop being all so closed so that my related question would be taken seriously too, just like others's questions. Maybe my questions are not important as others, which needed their answer asap. Maybe (:
No grudges kept, maybe i'm just being to emotional without apparent reasons. Damn, I hate being sucha barbie doll like this! I need my cat now.
